How many times have I considered returning to theses pages, to blog again, I truly don’t know yet what I do know this blog and the practice of writing here is like a friend to me that I have left behind and wish to reconnect and build a stronger conscious relationship with.
I wrote in my morning pages that I have so many parts of me that make who I am who I am and the person and or being is ever-changing, well not really changing, manifesting, evolving into a whole presence of being.
A year and 10 months ago when I began the new phase in life it was fresh start and the old challenges and daily struggles gone. I was truly on my own which was at first lonely, no not lonely I had felt abandoned, everything and everyone I once knew and counted on was gone, or seemed that way. I had to become responsible for myself which meant uncovering who I was now. As I unpacked boxes from a lifetime ago that had been in storage the old me began to emerge again, some of that person I did not wish to experience again, so he was set aside. There were recent creative activities I had even let go of that I now wish to bring forward once again.
Those being the healer, of course I had healing of my own to do first. Being the healer meant I can share my wisdom and knowledge to those around me in whatever form that showed up as. The healing of self began with eating healthier, getting exercise, building new social and creative connections and relationships. Ever growing, evolving and experiencing life in the present.
Willing to experience aloneness,
I discovered connection everywhere,
Turning to face my fear,
I meet the warrior who lives within;
Opening to my loss,
I am given unimaginable gifts;
Surrendering into emptiness,
I find fullness without end.
Each condition I flee from pursues me.
Each condition I welcome transforms me
And become itself transformed
Into its radiant jewel-like essence.
I bow to the one who made it so,
Who has crafted this Master Game;
To play it is pure delight,
To honor it is true devotion.
Jennifer Welwood: psychotherapist
I discovered this poem this morning which resonated with who I am becoming. The following blogs will illuminate that process of awareness. Who will show up are the many facets of my being, the inperfect self improving being we all have the opportunity to become.