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exercising your power of choice.

“… through exercising your power of choice judiciously, you can learn to see how you and your actions can work in harmony with the world around you. You may experience the grace of living in harmony with the universe only a handful of times, but the experience is characterized by a feeling of trust and a rapport with your surroundings.” Carolyn Myss

The power of choice

I read the above quote after having read the Fourth Step process in Alcoholics Anonymous: The process of taking an inventory of our lives, seeking the places we find resentment, anger, selfish behavior… and fear. These choices of fear selfish behavior, anger and resentments do not allow us/me to experience the grace of being in harmony with the universe, those choices do not create trust and or rapport with my surroundings, they do just the opposite.

Continual Flow

I say this because I find myself more and more in just those moments of choice, to control a situation, to be get angry because someone needs some or is hovering, in an unconscious caring way. I hear myself in those moments, when I am making a sarcastic comment, getting angry of a diver on the road that is going the speed limit, or even the dogs, when it seems to me an inappropriate time to want to take a walk, in those moments I have to breathe, I have to say how important is this to my sanity and my relationship to this situation. Constantly readjusting my attitude, realigning my self with the Higher Power. For each moment is a moment to learn who I am, or who I am not or even no longer wish to be.

Self-centered, resentment, anger, and fear...

There is some really wise words which when used as action to move beyond ourselves, from  Alcoholics Anonymous page 420 which states, “Perhaps the best thing of all for me is to remember that my serenity is inversely proportional to my expectations.” For I have unconscious expectation of how things are suppose to be, I have egoic reason why, a situation, person, place or thing should act accordingly, the wisdom goes on to say, ” The higher my expectations of other people are (and myself), the lower my serenity. I can watch my serenity level rise when I discard my expectations. But when my ‘rights’ (ego) try to move in, and they too can force my serenity down. I have to discard my ‘rights’ (ego) as well as expectations, by asking myself, How important is it, really?  How important is it compared to my serenity, my emotional sobriety? And when I place more value on my serenity and sobriety than on anything else, I can maintain them at a higher level – at least for the time being.”

For at least the time being, for the moment is just that only a moment, yet when anger and resentment have become present the moment lives on in my energy much longer. Yeah but ego says what about my ‘rights’ what about me, in a flash, you are not important, the state of being is, presence of mind, the action of Love is the state of being. Love of self, to be Love of others, Love to others.

I still have to ask, do I think that little of myself to continue to react in such a manner? The reason for this writing is to awaken that place of serenity, to create emotional sobriety on a regular basis, not a sometime, someplace experience, an experience that is a state of being, Being Love, I am Love. I use to sign off with I am Love, all the time, than something shifted, because what I was experiencing was everything put love from myself. So it was time to “trudge the road of happy destiny” once again.


Once again the practice of choosing consciously or judiciously choosing actions that are in harmony with the world around will offer the grace of serenity, will allow me to be present and leave the present to the past when the next moment comes, and I have acted Lovely from self into the world Lovely .

Question: What are your choices saying about you?

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Being Grateful!

There is no illness or life condition that cannot be cured. But if we insist on cure, we may miss out on real spiritual healing,  if our attachment to cure creates a battle inside us. If recovery from an illness is in the service of our growth or the growth of another, a physical cure — even a so-called miraculous cure — can happen in the twinkling of an eye. If being ill is in service of our growth or the growth of another, cure is unlikely, but spiritual healing is very likely if we make peace of mind our most important priority. Joan Borysenko

Thorns with Joy

This was the “seed thought” in “Pocket full of Miracles” this morning which was very serendipitous, for today in 1998 I drove myself to my first AA meeting, after being arrested for public drunkenness a few weeks before, and a year or so after I had been arrested for drunken driving in which I had to attend counseling. I wasn’t ready than but a year later and second arrest caused me to reach out.  To seek  recovery, which I didn’t know I was seeking. Did it happen in a “twinkling of an eye” no not really, it was a process, of  admitting I had a problem, surrendering the drink and my life to a Higher Power, which at the time was the AA program and the men and women who had come before me, who were in service to the growth of another. Those people in the rooms loved me until I could love myself, they told their stories, they shared their hopes and dreams. Thank you all for being there!!!

Bud and the Bloom!

22 years later here I am. I am not that same person I was, I have surrendered many times, I have practiced the steps of AA, I have been of service to new comers and old timers who sought assistance, through telling my story, to walking the walk and talking the talk.  I don’t attend meetings as I once did, but I am always aware I am one drink away from a drunk. I am always aware that another human being maybe reaching out to hear the right words, to have someone listen to them for the first time.

I seek the Higher Power in all that I do, the divine guides my path, shines the light from my heart. I am grateful for each and every moment that I have been granted sobriety .

“God Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can, and the willingness to know the difference! ”

I could go on and on but I will not! I a grateful !

I am Love!

Breaking through