Logic brain is our Censor, our second (and third and fourth) thoughts. Artist brain is our creative, holistic brain. It sees a forest and thinks: Wow! Leaf bouquet! Pretty! Gold-gilt-shimmery-earthskin-king’s-carpet!” Julia Cameron, The Artist’s Way
I almost got distracted again when I open my computer and saw 80 message, I started to read some of them but pull myself up quick before I was lost in Blogland and Facebook. Before I could write today I had to get to Target to buy some Memorex CD-R’s to unload some of the photographs I had piling up on iPhoto, my laptop would just not handle any more, I could not even move photographs over to my desk top so that I could submit them here or on redbubble. So I had to get that done of some of them moved to disk, I really need to organize my work better, right now it is mostly just titled with the date when the photos were taken, so I know if it is spring or fall, winter, put I don’t always know what is in those files unless I look through them somewhat. Crazy as it may seem, usually I know the file well enough to know what is in it once I take a quick look. Yet I know I find myself searching for shots every once in a while that seem to want to allude me and finding, somewhat frustrating. No one to blame but myself.
So while transferring files I caught up with blogs and emails, finished reading The Artist’s Way Chapter Basic Tools in which the quote above come from. This chapter reminded me to rediscover the language of my Artist Brain, to not listen to the Censor brain that would keep me stuck, not allow myself to see and experience the walk in the woods, the fragrance, the feel if the cooler breeze while under the trees, because in the past two days it has been in the 90’s. This morning on our first walk there was hardly any dew until we reached the grass of the football field. Normally the leaves brushing my face and arm splash us with cool refreshing wetness. Not today. The ground was dry, the leaves rustled with the wind leaving us with their touch and nothing more.
I begun reading the next chapter in 8 Weeks to Optimum Health by Andrew Weil, M.D. for my next turn on my Life Harmony path: A lot of what he is asking for this week agenda I have already begun to incorporated into my healing/recovery. First project is to inquire in health food stores and grocery market about organic produce. I have been searching that out for weeks, and long before that, I just did not consciously begin to buy organic because of the inconvenience of where the stores are, and the cost of the products themselves. Two weeks ago I went on a Tour of the Whole Foods Market with a women who owns business High Living Well in which she is a Holistic nutritionist . For about two hours we circumvented the market starting in produce, and work our way around the perimeter and then into the aisles. Being informed of different qualities of produce, how to read the little tags, that all of Whole Foods produce is tag, there are cards above the units informing one what is what. It was a impressive experience, who would have thought to offer a tour of a food store?
In Week Three Dr. Weil ask us to eat more fruits and veggies, eat fish twice this week, doing whole foods vegan fish is not really on my plans but a good piece of fresh caught Salmon I usually won’t pass up.
The big thing I have purchase is Vitamin E and Selenium: I think that is the end of the vitamin regiment. We started with C 1000-2000 mm with each meal. And than mixed carotenes with Breakfast, 25,000 I U. Good God I don’t think I have been this healthy ever!!
I realized I sort of write these pages to an audience, knowing that people are reading this, so I have consciously sought to block that out until now, mostly to tell on myself, to let the pages just flow, write what is happening, write what you are feeling and or doing or not doing… whether I have an audience or not, and I know I have because I have been receiving wonderful feedback about this process. I am honored to have this support and encouragement. Part of this journey is for me to expand my social and creative network, to be challenged as well as to be encouraged as an artist and a person. I am glad that I am beginning to reap those benefits, for too long I have avoided, escaped, ignored human contact as much as possible. Knowing now, and I knew before I need to have these relationships in order for me to grow emotionally and spiritually, therefore growing creatively. God through Neale Donald Walsch in Conversation with God Book 1 writes,
“It is only though your relationships with other people, places, and events that you can even exist (as a knowable quantity, as an identifiable something) in the universe… Once you clearly understand this, once you deeply grasp it, then you intuitively bless each and every experience, all human encounter, and especially personal human relationships, for you see them as constructive, in the highest sense… to construct Who You Really Are.”
These words ring true to me once again, I once believed them but I was in the wrong place to manifest them as true, not only did not like the people who were around me, I did not like who I saw myself reflected back. The veils are beginning to fall away, the artist mind begins to flow, to dream, to create, accepts what is and honor that.
Growth Question: What brain rules your life? Censor Brian, or Artist Brain? Or have you learned to dance together?
I am Love, Jeff