” It is through me that the heavens declare the glory of God, through me the moon worships God, though me the stars glorify Him, through me the waters and showers of rain, the dew and all creation venerate God and give him glory.” Saint Leontius of Cyprus
I read this this morning as part of my meditation practice which comes from Joan Borysenko’s “Pocketful of Miracles” book. This book is a great place to get centered and to have a goal throughout the day to place gratitude in front of everything I do and everything that I am being.
I have not written for over a month, and I have longed to many times, yet the moments were not right, the energy and thoughts just did not wish to flow. The quite space was not available and even know maybe interrupted by the endless loop of back ground TV noise.
Along with not blogging, photographing was not the highest priority either, it was days and even weeks that I had not taken a photograph, I continued to visit my site and do some of my moderation on Redbubble but even that was half-hearted. Yet I kept going to the well, filling myself as much as I could, hoping for the return of my health and passion to write and photograph.
I five weeks ago or more I realized I had a kidney infection and was seeking to holistically heal through self Reiki, and having Reiki healing sent. Also using Green Tea, Cranberry tablets, vitamin B-50 Complex and a multitude of other healing remedies. I finally broke down and went to the Dr, to be check over, have urine test done, this was at least 2 maybe 3 weeks into the infection, he prescribe antibiotics which knock it out in less than a week. So now it has been two weeks since the Dr.s visit, a week of clear signs that the infection is gone and I am feeling my energy and desire return.
I managed during the week of antibiotics to enter a photograph in the 6th Annual Juried Art Show at the William Way GLBTICenter in Philadelphia, I was accepted and the reception/show opening was a grand success. I truly needed the artistic connection, I truly needed to see my work hanging in a fully recognized exhibit, to feel that rush as well as anxiety.
To see people walk by the piece, to have my friend and curator of the show offer feed back, on the piece that was not accepted, due to not the photograph itself but the matting had become dirty. He also informed me one of the other judges was very enthusiastic about my submission, and had commented on it many times.
So what has this have to do with the quote about, my being God’s instrument in the glory of the world around me. Well I had to do with how and why I am a photographer. The prayer/practice part of book Pocketful of Miracles ask this: “contemplate the thought that you make God’s creation visible, that you encourage the earth to bloom through your appreciation.” My appreciation becomes visible through my photography, the earth blooms and evolves in front of me and I am honored to photograph it to share its beauty and wonder with the world. Much of it is simple, much of it is everyday plants and flowers you see in your yard or have the opportunity to view as you walk in a park or even drive down the street if we take the time to look. All of God’s/Goddess beauty is there for our pleasure and sharing.
My illness kept me away from much of that, the energy levels, kept me in a resting mode, a healing space, yet I knew that the earth would heal me soon, so that I could return to her, to capture her beauty, to invaded by her fragrance of spring honeysuckle and wild rose combined with sent of wood and decaying leaves…