“Real learning comes about when the competitive spirit has ceased.” J. Krishnamurti
It seems I may be in competition with my own ego… I received a response from Balance Gallery, or the contact person who sent the gallery assignments yesterday morning and the response was not one that I expected. For I had not heard anything from them in months since we set up the date, I contact “E” about that, asking whether we could meet, what the requirements were for exhibiting, if there was a contract that I need to read and sign. This is the message I got back: “Hello. It’s confirmed no contract I’m not there at balance. Very busy with child but drop by anytime to look at space. Usually 3 big pieces and 4 small ones. Thanks.”
I read that and was very disappointed, after my last blog, all the thoughtfulness I was beginning to place around this exhibit, the steam was let out! And I have been questioning my expectations, and my motives behind this exhibit and the disappointment with the lack of enthusiasm from the gallery.
On the bright side, there is less work, cost is cut down, letting me focus on other avenues of work and exhibits in the near future. One of those happened two weekends ago when I went to a Gallery in Olde City Philadelphia to support and view a fellow friends work. Butch is a local and nation wide gay celebrity , from his TV show In Bed with Butch, in which he interviewed other gay men, or people of interest to the gay community. Well Butch had put together a collection of photographs based on Iconic photographs with the basis being a straight man and a gay man naked together to represent this famous shots. Here is what Butch has to say about his project, “Straight and Butch” delves into the boundries of male sexuality and masculinity. Initially, the concept was to shoot heterosexual models in the nude, together with myself, a homosexual man. The idea was not to portray them as gay, but quite the contrary. By showing tension, uncomfortableness & vulnerability that naturally occur when put into compromising situations, the subjects appear even more straight.”
I found the work creative, brave, edgy as well as bold.
So while there at the gallery Ven and Vaida at 18 S. 3rd street, I chatted with the owner and fellow worker about the art, getting a feel for the space. The purpose of my being there as not only to view art but also to fill my well, have an “artist date” so to speak. I shared with Butch and others that is it my goal to be in the energy of other artist and creative people. Since I am not a trained artist, I have to follow my intuition. I felt welcomed, I gave them my card and while talking to the woman there she mentioned that the gallery exhibits where pretty well booked except for September and October, that they where waiting to see who showed up. I responded by saying, “I am showing up.” and handed her my card, she said great and notice that I was a Reiki practitioner as well, so commented on the being in the energy of beauty, etc. Later I was speaking to Bill and he was sharing about the main exhibit and their collection of antique jewelry. I which I mentioned I just photographed some old lighters of my fathers and grandfathers. We continued to discuss object in the store/gallery, then Billy mentioned the other owner Atom, was interested in photographs of Philadelphia and ask if I had some. I said of course and directed him to the redbubblesite.
It was not until I was on my way home, for I spent some time in Olde City photographing different subject that interested me, caught my attention, with the thought in the back of my mind that this may be some work that could be of interest to this gallery. In the car driving home it hit me! Bam, the feeling of something amazing just happened, that this discuss at Ven and Vaida could lead to a gallery show in Olde City during First Friday events, which is a big opportunity to be seen and exposed to other artist and gallery. I as thrilled to chills at my “luck”!
So taking the disappointment of Balance’s lack of attention to people who seem to really care about art and art object has given me new perspective on my competition with self, learn to work through the momentary breakdown to begin to build another area of commitment and expression.
Growth Question: Have you had to walk your self through disappointment to find the light?
I am Love, Jeff