Man can learn nothing except by going from the known to the unknown. Claude Bernard
The simple action of taking the time to learn from doing and being something was not experienced before, the simple action of going beyond what one thinks he knows to experience something that has not been experienced before is frightful as well as freeing. Freeing of letting go of old ideas, old patterns and habits, to experience the thrill of… of what? A new attitude, and new perspective, a more sustainable way of living.
The thoughts are gone now. The Artist’s Way suggest that you get up a half hour earlier to write in a, “stream of consciousness” form, three pages, I don’t know how many words three pages are but I seek to write as long as the thoughts run, and then finish off. As some of you know I began blogging the “morning pages” as my second time through the practice of The Artist’s Way, 12 week process, of uncovering and re-discovery of who I am as an artist. How we bring creativity to life. This process is suppose to be private and kept hidden, and the first time through I did write “morning pages” long hand in a journal. Blogging the “pages” was a way to get more honest, to recommit to the process, and I got to week 8, and everything seems to have come to a screeching halt, now I am gently unraveling what caused that block, where did the fear begin to rear is ugly head? Not so much in my art/photography but in the art of living my life. Was it in my grandest moment that I played old tapes or that the censor mind blurted out, “who are you kidding, you don’t deserve this stuff, your not suppose to let people into your life again, you know what happens when you get close…” but I did not hear that voice, it was a more silent, unconscious action, to discontinue the progress I had become months before.
Even as I sit here and write the censor keeps blurting out in the back of my mind, “No one wants to read this stuff, you keep saying the same thing. Aren’t you being self indulgent here, this blog is always about you. Do people care?” Your right this is about me, but it is about me being open and I hope authentic as I can be, even if it seems self indulgent, ego promoting. But is its so that the process of uncovering who we are is out in the open, that the road map is written, the terrain is set before the reader, to know that they are not alone, to know the the process of recovery of our highest grandest being is an unraveling, an evolution from the ideals and practices of the social world we are brought up in, the revealing of idea’s and beliefs that are thrust upon us from birth from parents, teachers, ministers, priest, media, and all other forms of information that is unconsciously consumed. The walking away, the tuning out, the listening to the small voice, the marching to a different drummers, is not an easy task, even when we know in our hearts, our beings that it is the correct path. A quote that keeps coming across my path is from Henry David Thoreau: “The cost of a thing is the amount of what I call life which is required to be exchanged for it, immediately or in the long run.” He should know because he choose to live in a different manner than society had thrust upon him. He wrote a map of living more simply, to experience life in its fullest detail, the life that was all around him not just society. If the man who became “the Christ” had just stayed Jesus, if the prince who had become the Buddha, would have just continued the proscribe life society had set out for them instead of listening and following the deeper voice we would not have those example either.
No I am not comparing myself to these Beings or I am. We all have the power to overcome the world around us, “Be in the world but not of it” is a quote said to be of Jesus. A wise suggestion but not always as simple, to live from our deepest sense, to live from our highest consciousness, to live from our hearts, is both joyful and painful, it is dancing the balance, it is embracing the chaos, to walk in the world and experience it from its Grandest perspective, that is the perspective of Love, that is the perspective of Being Love.
Embrace the unknown to become the light of the known, the road is never ending.
Growth Question: Find something among the blog that resonates from your deepest being, listen, what is it trying to say?
I am Love, Jeff