I am allowed to nurture my artist! The Artist’s Way
Well should I just sit here and stare at the blank page? I think not! Sometimes, and right now is one of those moments that I know that I desire to write, even while not knowing what to write. So going blank for a few moments is helpful in getting out of my own way.
First lets back track a little, of course that is not being in the moment, but it is background to stand on to dialogue about the process. In spite of my finally breaking my silence here, blogging/writing, I was pulled into the pit of mister grumpy. Mister Grumpy wanted to be irritated and dissatisfied with everything that cross his path. There is no one home but the dogs and I, sister and brother-in-law went to visit his family on Monday, due back today sometime. So home alone. And thank goodness for that, I did even want to be with myself in the mood I kept creating to experience for some unknown reason. Mostly I just had to shut down.
From the dogs waking me in the early morning, 5:00 am, not being able to get the coffee to taste right, to stepping on my shoe lasses, yelling at myself. My energy totally crashed, my bowels did not wish to function in a proper manner. I crawled up on the sofa, blankets and pillows, and watched a marathon of Law and Order SUV! Well that could really put a person in mood.
Finally showered and dressed yesterday, I reached out to friends, made contact with humans. Talked on the phone, met a friend for lunch, the weather was cooperating as well, Sun shine, high 50’s, no need to dress like a mummy to go out side. Spring was beginning to present itself, refilled the bird feeder, pick up trash that was blown around the yard from two days of high wind, that had upended trash cans scattering debris every which way.
Now I feel more myself, but I was feeling the pull of the darkness trying to get my attention and the best way to head it off is to say good morning , what can I do for you. We are going to have a productive day, even if the one job of burning photographs to CD’s is not an option until you can figure out how to get the disk that is stuck in your laptop out… nothing seems to work, I may have to take the lid off the computer, still seeking other options.
The week had not been a total unproductive experience, even though the events where Friday and Sunday of last week. Friday, was the Medford Art Center’s Juried Art Show Reception in which a few fellow South Jersey Photography Group members had their work. My First reaction to the exhibit was, OMG this stuff is brilliant, I am glad I didn’t enter, I would have been turned down. Than I step back from those blurts and stopped comparing my photography to theirs, and looked for the talent, the lessons, in creating beautiful photography. I was there to support my friends, be among the admires of some really really brilliant work, from portraits, nature, cityscapes, to documentary pieces that captured the essence of the area. Each piece offered me the ability to look at my own work from a different perspective.
Than on Sunday I had been invited, my camera and I had been invited to a fundraiser for Jeff Gardner for Senator at a friends home which is this amazing postmodern home build in to the landscape opening up to 20 foot windows in the back to reveal the local landscape of wooded areas… The house was filled with people and upon walking in was the professional photographer from the Courier Post, the local South Jersey news paper. I am not crazy about taking indoor photographs, there seemed to be enough light in most cases. So I began to work my way around the room, find areas that were out of the way, I like to capture these events as unposed as possible, so I clung to the walls, knelt on the floor, stood in the kitchen, observing and snapping shots. I think I did well.
Writing this blog as much as I may “fight” it, is a very rewarding experience.
Growth Question: Are the moments that you “fight” for you positive creativity?