For the past few days I have been unable to wrap my mind and or spirit around writing a word let a lone a whole blog. It seems I had to regroup, repurpose after the artist reception. Regain some footing to shine light on new ventures, new opportunities, to gradually move from one place to another instead of crashing head long into a space I was not emotionally or spiritually centered to enter. Have I used this time wisely, most likely not, or maybe so. Some words from Julia Cameron in chapter/week 3 Recovering the Sense of Power (The Artist’s Way) suggest “life is what we make of it. Whether we conceive of an inner god or an other, outer God, doesn’t matter. Relying on that force does.” So relying on the force to invite me, to embrace me, to allow it to speak its wisdom and knowledge by quite or whatever activity informs me in the process.
I had the wondrous opportunity to listen/watch a video of Elizabeth Gilbert on Ted in which she speaks about creativity and the force or spirit that informs, guides, takes the force of our egos and allows us to use the excuse that we showed up where the spirits, where was the inspiration? That experience was in some ways my artist date, my filling the well so to speak. There is also video of Amy Tan who speaks of creativity as well which I will watch to gleam more juice to proceed on my journey artistically !
I also have just received the next installment of Life Harmony program which I am so ready to dive into and have read once through already and has been on my thoughts in the days since first reading. There was a question from Sonia, which states at first “What makes you happy?” Yet upon opening the email/blog the question reads as, “What, recently, has brought joy in your life?” I immediately had a thought that there was a difference to these words Happy and Joy and I had read something about it somewhere? Oh my mind finally said in your new installment, self-acceptance. Here Laurie explains the difference between happiness and joy. Happiness being a feeling, Joy is a state of Being. Laurie writes “the feeling that we refer to as “happiness” is a feeling that come and goes based on external circumstances — it is temporary – fleeting at best. However, when our perspective is governed from inside out, the external pressures fall away and we experience joy. Rather than a feeling, joy is a state of being. It is inexplicable peace. It is abiding. Cultivating and maintaining joy eases the struggle that exists along life’s path. Joy leads to grace – the immediate presence of Spirit.”
Joy the immediate presence of Spirit, now there is a state of being worth creating within ourselves. It would eliminate craving for more, it would allow of gratitude to be another state of being to guide me through the day, through the circumstances of life that desire to push the buttons, rewind old tapes, bring up sponsoring thoughts (CWG) that keep me behind the veil of uncertainty, the haven that fear creates out of not accepting self, not showing up, not being as authentic as one truly is. Joy would bring me forth, joy would allow creativeness to inform and embolden my journey.
I have to say writing this blog/pages is a struggle, my sugar is crashing again, the dogs didn’t want to stay outside and I kept getting up to tend to them finally bringing them in. The computer wants to be slow so finding the links to people, places and things is getting on my nerves because of the sugar crash.
I think I will give up now, let go of the fight! allow the flow to stream around whatever rocks wish to be lodge in the middle of this stream.