“All sanity depends on this: that it should be a delight to feel heat strike the skin, a delight to stand upright, knowing the bones are moving easily under the flesh.” Doris Lessing
Week two of the Artist’s Path Recovering a Sense of Identity this is the week that self-definition is what we are looking for, to gain understanding boundaries, paying more attention to new areas of interest, people, places, events, that encourage as well as inform us of what we don’t want, that blocks our creativeness and keeps us insane.
I am sitting here writing this and it feels forced and uncomfortable, does not feel true or authentic. I am writing because I made a commitment too, but I am writing as well to rediscover creativity, to clear the paths, that once kept me stuck, or on the track of sameness. I am writing to hear the voices, of sanity and insanity to make new choices, to envision to creative tools, new opportunities to grow as a photographer and as a person within the realm of all possibilities.
Yesterday, after going to the bank and health food store for I got a bug to go find a 55-200mm lens and on the way by Target I almost stop there, but I went all the way out to Cherry Hill, to the Mall, oh my goodness, a journey I am grateful I don’t make often. Once there I find out that they have closed the Ritz Camera shop there too. It was early in the day but I was not going to go wandering around to find a Ritz Camera shop. I know one is in Philly and is convenient to get to once there. I look up the shops on the web and the Lens I was looking for, yet I did not buy one. Then this morning I get a newsletter from Target and they have the same Lens on sale for $10 less, then the camera shop. So the choice now is do I truly want to make this investment now at this time? If I had stopped at Target as I thought about it on the way by the lens would most likely be in my hands now. Hmm?
The distraction or blockers I am to look out for this week are Poisonous Playmates, Crazy makers, Skepticism. Poisonous playmates are friends/family who are blocked artist who may feel disturb by the recovery of my own. Using guilt or plans that keep me from my work. Crazymakers are usually ego based talented artist living off the energy of other artists while creating their own art, keeping the student blocked or in fear of venturing to create for themselves. Skepticism comes from our own voice, our ego even, creating doubt at what I am doing is really working and not just some fluke of nature. This is where the Creator comes into play in the creation of my own creation. It could be the voice I heard about the lens and Target, shall I follow that suggestion/voice. Julia Cameron writes, “Setting skepticism aside, even briefly, can make for very interesting explorations. In Creative recovery, it is not necessary that we change any beliefs. It is that we examine them.”
On the positive side of all of this is Attention: “Attention is a way to connect and survive.” It seem that my photography is about attention, paying attention to the sights around me, to inform others of the beauty the surrounds and evolves around them each and everyday. I write about my attention, things I see, feel, and experience while on a walk with the dogs, and camera, that the world is alive and in constant change.
“There is an underlying, in-dwelling creative force infusing all of life –including ourselves.” Basic Principles 2. The Artist’s Way .
I am wandering now so I must be at the end of this blog/page. Once I let go, stopped forcing the words to come the experience allow for a better flow, my attention was more in focus allowing the opportunity to be present!
Growth Question: Do you have Crazymakers, poisonous playmates and skepticism playing on your creative juice?
I am Love, Jeff
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