“There is a recognizable ebb and flow to the process of recovering our creative selves. As we gain strength, so will some of the attacks of self-doubt.” Julia Cameron
I just finished watching ‘Work of Art’ a reality tv show of challenges to choose then next great artist. I was amazed, thrilled, and a bit disturb about the things I don’t know about art. The challenge was to create a portrait of one of their fellow artist, getting behind that artist and finding the person. Many brilliant pieces of art, a few so so, a couple too conceptual, and considered not portraits at all and would not be seen a portraits.
So the quote I lead with, spoke to me after watching this show, and wondering if I have a more creative talent, could I create a portrait that expressed the essence of a person? I don’t have the training as an artist, or really even as a photographer. I do what I do from a deeper place within me, and with the gallery show coming up in Mid July I have been considering the pieces that I would use, why such and such, should I go with a more gay themed approach, or a varied expression of my best work? Can I wow them, can I wow myself? How creative am I really? So as I recover, walk out on the edge of places I choose to go, self-doubt wants to rear it ugly head. The quote goes on to say, “This is normal, (speaking of self-doubt) and we can deal with these stronger attacks when we see them as symptoms of our recovery.” One thing I have learned is not to compare myself or my situation to others, I can only measure myself to myself, using other artist as examples, as guides, as teachers and mentors, as I can use the show “Work of Art” to inform me, excite me and teach me!
I was thinking I wanted to have a fun blog today, I seem always to be so serious, and here I am being serious once again. This journey is serious, this is my passion, evolving into heaven knows what. So still no fun, I don’t think, humor may show up at some time, but I think he is out drinking or already asleep.
The weekend looks like it will be a full weekend of social and photographic opportunities. It is Gay Pride weekend in Philly. Saturday the Radical Faeries support the Dyke March with supplying them with Water Ice throughout the rally and march, and I will be there once again to document that event. Sunday is Gay Pride March and Festival on the river front as well as many other events throughout the day and evening around the city of brotherly love.
So my artist date this week was to visit other Photographer portfolio on Redbubble! Diving deeper into their work, viewing photographers works that I have not seen or even visiting artist work that are on my watch list. To see if I have missed some pieces, to comment on new works. And the genera extends from nature, to portraits, to candid, expressionist work with shots of rusty, peeling paint. Making comments and picking favorites helps encourage and support fellow artists, as well as allows me to see and experience what else is out there. One thing that has been happening is that I have notice that I have been only getting two or three comments on most of work, and usually from the same people. So I need to look into why that is?What else I can do to stir more interest in my work. I know it is suggested to journal more, enter challenges, comment on as many peoples work as you can. Hmm? Thought I was doing all of that, need I do more?
Well it looks like my recovery is in full swing because I have self-doubt yet I am looking for solutions. Creating personal challenges, and creative challenge to shift my work to another place, to get my work viewed, shown, sold.
Ooppss, once again I step into the serious road, so why did serious cross the road? To find humor, to get run over by a car, to take a photo of fun, or something in the middle of the road?
One of the Basic Principles of the Artist’s Way that I will use as an affirmation is “It is safe to open myself up to greater and greater creativity”
Thanks I needed that!
I am Love, Jeff
Growth Question: Does self-doubt stop you in your tracks or can you use it to inform you to create new exciting challenges for yourself?